I had my second face to face, first in-depth, meeting with my worker today. We laughed, shared some stories and I asked a lot of questions. In return he slid a packet of craziness across the table. The picture is a all inclusive foster care packet, jammed full of a life history paper I have to write, a TB test, background checks, finger printing, behavioral classes, STARS classes, payment plans, home visits, attorney qualifications, judge hearings, class schedules and last, but certainly not least, reference forms. When John, my case work, flopped this in front of me, he chuckled and said "welcome to the world." It's a little overwhelming honestly. But as I walked out of the office and sat in my truck I was reminded of a verse that I have begun memorizing. It's Acts 20.24: However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and completely the task, the Lord Jesus has given to me- the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace. Well I can say the packet that lies before me now is looking like a large task, a 3 month task to be exact. When I was reminded of that, it didn't seem so overwhelming. God didn't make the promise that this process was going to be easy, nor did he promise that it won't seem like a lot. But, he did promise he would never leave nor forsake me, and he asks me to lay my anxieties at his feet. I think I am going to get a good taste of what laying my anxieties down really means. In all of this though, I am very excited. There were some foster children running around down stairs while I was there, and it made me a little bit more excited. God's heart is for the orphans, and I believe he is making my heart more and more like his in that aspect. 126,000 children are waiting in foster care right now in Missouri, and it blesses me that Jesus is going to use me to fix that problem. I just wanted to update you on the happenings in this hopeful life. I want to leave you with a song that continues to touch my heart through this process:
Bless the Lord, O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
I'll worship Your holy name
The sun comes up, it's a new day dawning
It's time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes
Bless the Lord, O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
I'll worship Your holy name
You're rich in love, and You're slow to anger
Your name is great, and Your heart is kind
For all Your goodness I will keep on singing
Ten thousand reasons for my heart to find
Bless the Lord, O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
I'll worship Your holy name
And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years and then forevermore
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